Thursday, December 31, 2009

Sayonara 2009!

Here's the year in the review. Nah-nah-nah-naah, hey-hey-heey, good-bye, 'Aughts!

January, 2009: Sara moved in, La Jolla Playhouse moved me out. Then was winter of our discontent.

February, 2009: Girlfriend went to Africa, I went to the unemployment office, Katie came to visit SD, and "Love Is For Suckas" gave birth to So Say We All.

March, 2009: Lost myself in the desert, found my family at Passover, and continued to apply for Craigslist jobs, cross my fingers on the video game industry.

April, 2009: Bank account dwindled, MAP hired me, and Scott made me lick whip cream off of a male stripper's chest in Las Vegas.

May, 2009: DAHMER went to Omaha for the GPTC, Sony Online Entertainment called me up, and the census began. Hey, a year ago I was a fresh-faced college graduate, ready for the world to let me live my life.

June, 2009: Best weekend of the summer with Sam's birthday, began working on "Everquest", and tried to keep cool.

July, 2009: Job began to dull my senses, Justin and I celebrated one year of friendship (a milestone), and we left downtown for hire ground.

August, 2009: Moved into North Park house, pushed V.A.M.P. from our creative loins, Gina popped in for a visit, and Sony grew increasingly depressing.

September, 2009: New York, I came back to turn 24; New York, you called me back; New York, you broke my heart on my girlfriend's birthday.

October, 2009: SSWA produces Dahmer, the relationship goes south, New York says keep in touch, SSWA produces V.A.M.P., I leave SOE and go back to SEO for MAP, and Halloween was one to remember in a month to forget.

November, 2009: Thanksgiving at home, old friends, older friends, return to looking forward to work, SSWA produces one show a week and gets named one of the ten best cultural things to do in San Diego (pages 22 and 54).

December, 2009: Jewsgiving 2009 is success, SSWA "Home For The Holidays" is too, Dahmer gets the White Gorilla treatment, "Nick Garland's Last Night In Town" gets finished, and bullshit over friendship almost gets in the way.

Yo, 2010, what you doin' for the next 365 days?

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Home For The Holidays

Before we wrap up this crazy, absolutely insane year we call 2009, I can't help but reflect on the recent past much more fondly and clearly than this past year as a whole. So many weirdly delightful and strangely horrific things that have happened that it took me a while to even register that they were happening.

This can't be...can it? That these folks came back, this one left, and another from out of the blue? Can we really laugh this much at something which exists for two minutes and is not on YouTube? Does the Grinch really get to win at the end of it all? I'm still not sure I've taken in everything from the past six weeks, but this is what I do know.

Salt Lake City, Utah -- Thanksgiving

I hadn't been home for nearly a year and a half, but after the hellish month known as October, 2009 came to a close, I was ready for some familiar settings and territory, one where I knew the layout and could put my guard down for a while. San Diego was becoming a war zone and I needed the vanilla civilian lifestyle that was uncomplicated and easily ignored. So, I headed home to Salt Lake City for Turkey Day.

The place I always wanted to leave had, like most cliches about going home, won me over for a number of reasons. My brother Sam, now in high school, finally feels like a teenager and acts like one. Though rarely a night passed where I would go to bed with him playing on his PS2 only to wake up in the morning and find him busily working away at the X, triangle, square, and circle keys. But we talked, which was something that was always sort of lacking in our relationship. We talked about growing up, about school, and about how he wants to play football. I also got to spend some quality time with my mom (my dad, too, but he had to make an unforeseen trip to Virginia during Thanksgiving dinner), who I can tell really misses me and I miss her, but we both know that I'm not coming back home until it is absolutely necessary. St
ill, I got to spend time with them and take them to the movies, which is all any of us could ask for, so I feel great to have kept our traditions alive.

Perhaps the strangest connection was made yet again through my friend, Scott. Friday night was going to be our guys night -- hitting up a my friend's birthday party downtown before heading to The Avenues for a rowdier crowd of frat boys and gay men playing beer pong. During dinner, Scott kept telling me about his new best friend, Rachel Lazer. He had told her about me and she texted Scott back "Was his dad a sports caster?" Scott and I looked at one another -- another circle of people we thought didn't know each other was now complete. But who was Rachel Lazer from Park City? I couldn't place the name. Then it hit me: not Lazer, but Lasser. She had a twin brother named John and we'd grown up together, going on ski trips and spending afternoons at the swimming pool on the hill. I hadn't seen them in fifteen years, since their parents divorced. Since their dad moved to San Francisco and killed himself. Since their mom moved them to the secluded gated-communities of Park City and they'd all but disappeared from the map. I had always wandered what happened to them, thinking
I'd look up their mother, Jane, in the phone book and track them down. But I never did.

The birthday party went by like a flash in the pan and as we hopped into John's car on the way up to the Avenues, I still couldn't believe that I'd found them. Rachel looked very different than I remember her. If we passed on the street, I would not have recognized her. It was John who looked the same, minus the tallness and the beard. He'd been a drug addict for years, but got clean and was now helping others do the same. Rachel went to American University in D.C. and now worked with homeless youth. Playing round after round of beer pong brought back memory after memory that I'd dwelled over for nearly two decades, but each of them had repressed. "Remember digging up that dead cat and shooting it with the B.B. gun?" "NO!" "Or what about the grease fire at your house and your mom made us stay in the basement until the fire department was done?" "Holy shit!
I hadn't thought about that for years!" We eventually made it back to Scott's apartment complex for some hot tub dipping until the cops came to shut us down. Rachel and I crashed in Scott's living room, talking about all those days we remembered and all the ones we'd tried to forget but couldn't. She told me that she had pushed all of this stuff away because when her dad died, it was too much for her to comprehend, but she knew it was true because I was telling it to her.

And like the days after swimming, where we'd lie down on the porch of their house overlooking the valley storm's approaching, we passed out on colorful towel with candy glued to our faces.

San Diego, California -- Christmas

A.k.a, "Jewsgiving", a.k.a. "The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year", a.k.a. "It Was Just Another One Of Those Days"

I was on my way to the third mall in Mission Valley, but now I was headed to Fashion Valley and I still didn't know the difference. Missy called, but I was afraid to answer the phone behind the wheel. I had a 200 lbs. desk loosely tied in the back of my truck with the best of my dwindling Boy Scout abilities barely keeping it in as I parked the truck in the busy mall, afraid of a lawsuit at any minute, but squeezed in between two cars and ran up to the movie theater. I had gotten another call from Missy, which came just as I ran up the stairs, so I knew it was important. I opened my phone just in time to hear the message replay "...house broken into...laptop missing...Christmas presents gone..." The movie would have to wait. I drove up to Missy and Mindy's house to hear Missy telling her sister to take a shot, it would help. She had just taken one and it had helped her. I hugged them both and tried to offer what little comfort I could. Someone had made their way into the house while the sisters had gone Christmas shopping, taking off with Mindy's portable computer and all of the Christmas gifts set out that Missy had just completed wrapping. All that was left was the Fuck It Bucket, a gift Missy had made for her friend which was a container of candy that said "Fuck It" on the side, sitting where the mountain of presents once took up residence. It was the ultimate middle finger.

The cops came, took a report, and we all tried to suggest what the girls could do next. I had tried to give Mindy my old laptop a month ago, but the thing ran slower than molasses. Maybe I could fix it up, but I wasn't sure. Missy pretty much got over the fact that things had been stolen, but couldn't quite shake the feeling of a stranger coming in the house, violating space and privacy. How safe were they in that place, which, just a week before hand had been the venue to host their Tiny House Party. Now, the Grinch had come and been the worst than the party guest who shows up empty handed only to take a dump on your bed after a few too many Tecates.

Things did get better on Christmas. We all went over to Justin's house for "Jewsgiving", his name for Christmas Eve dinner, because he'd much rather spend the holiday with his mother, his dog, and all of his Jewish friends. We ate to our hearts content, only the best of potluck food, as well as drank. A lot. We recalled embarrassing tales, told the worst kinds of jokes, and had the type of bohemian meal that you are supposed to have when you are young and friends equal family no matter how often you see or do not see them. The next day, it was out to El Cajon for presents and the introduction to the Ugly Step Sister of America's Finest City. I think it was all summed up for me when passing by an old man, half-passed out in a Buick, smoking and listening to gospel R&B with the car door open. It was just another day in the Little Coffin.

We wrapped up the day with a movie, some Rock Band, and munching on candy, even though our stomachs could not fit another centimeter of food in them. And now, we go into one of my favorite weeks -- the one right before New Year.

I'm so excited, and while I could hide it, I'm going to forgo that part.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Letters From The Monkey House

Y'know, there aren't many letters written these days, in the era of electronic mail, so I feel it is important to save messages you get and then share them with my friends. This is a message from my boss (the names and details have been kept out to save the innocent) to our web guy in Los Angeles, but please keep in mind while you read this: he actually talks and writes all his e-mails as such. This was not a special day, other than the fact that this one takes the cake.

I think my some micro, site views of the the main website and in vice versa. I think it would be helpful for me if you did two things. 1. If there's any articles written about how the to relate to one another and so I can if you could write something on doesn't have to be in perfect and leisure and take a lot of time doing it. Basically, what's the smart way for us to do this. Where is hey, i mean how how that you want to have a our. The married to one another. What sort of factors, Hi. My second way for us to do this meeting should. K and the boys there the going back to doing what they were doing what you have the micro sites up and they can review the blog and in to make them somehow, but I need to know and I think they need to know specifically how is it that the to the general into one another. I mean, it's not gonna be all that often that they're gonna go back and we can every single blanking blog, which is what they're doing now because the Law Center. If you could write something and then send something over at your first convenience that would be appreciated and copy K as well. Obviously that's gonna be the first of i would imagine. Other thoughts on that. I was Week get used to it. Main thing is I don't we connect the arms of the body and except for et cetera. Have a nice evening.

Takers for bets? What drugs was he on? What was going through his head at the moment? Do I work for someone who should be in the third grade?

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

The Fantastic Mr. Guy Foxx

Remember, remember this is a great November.

You could say that for all the shit that went down in October, November is making up for.

You could say that once MY FRIEND DAHMER was staged, it laid out an artistic pathway for VAMP, a revised New Orleans play that is still missing a title, and the San Diego movie, NICK GARLAND'S LAST NIGHT IN TOWN, to define our lives (all ten of us).

You could say that it was scary for a moment, but Halloween and all it's ghosts packed up for Boca, to join the rest of the living dead.

You could say that blogging is just blogging, but blogging pays the bills, garnishes the thrills, and soothes the ills. You could also say this is the first time any one has ever paid you to take a break.

You could say that taking a break from writing and jumping head on into producing was a bit nerve racking, but the water felt just fine at the after party where you repeatedly got called "White Chocolate Nigga" and helped to compose a song called "Look At That Ass!"

You could say that you do have a lot of outstanding bills, though you are outstanding at staying on top of the middle portion of them.

You could say that it would be easier to stay in Diego, the land you only just really started to love about the time you were going to leave it, but that Salt Lake hasn't seen you in a year and a half, so she gets to spend Thanksgiving with you.

You could say that late night burritos, Tuesday karaoke, s'mores around a beach bond fire, and countless bottles of beers in your fridge are all bad for your health (note: you are wrong).

You could say that feelings still linger though friendship has never been stronger.

You could say anything you want about this month, but it unless you were here, there is no way you could remember how good it felt when it hit you.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Under The Snake

Below is my project for the VAMP "Scared Shitless" show that went really well. You aren't going to see me soak my head in the bucket, something reserved solely for the live performance, but my parents' voices really make the piece what it is.

This is UNDER THE SNAKE:



I finished Nick Garland's Last Night In Town this week, sending it out to only three people, as it is still a rough draft. I feel like I should take a break for a little bit, what, with My Friend Dahmer just being about two weeks ago. But then I make little projects for VAMP or the story slam and it just means that I can't stop with all the projects. Now I've got to go full blast or I'll just drive myself crazy.

This is going to follow me all the way through next week, when I go home for Thanksgiving. I haven't been back to Salt Lake City in over a year (let alone seen the Greatest Snow on Earth in two years) and while I anticipate it being relaxing, I also can feel the itch to use most of that time for writing. I'll have to balance it somehow.

In other news, blogging is going well, despite the fact that last week a plastic surgeon who was written about when I had left for the summer is suing our offices. He won't win and we have nothing to worry about, but it is fun to be a part of something that is coming under fire. I mean, it is either that or spend the time talking about how many people in the office know the paralegal got a breast augmentation. Honestly, that only passes an hour or two.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Power Of The Dark Side

From staged readings to original plays about Jeffrey Dahmer, three drama geeks are exposing the hidden underbelly of San Diego’s cultural scene
By Sarah Nardi




There’s a reason we picture artists in garrets, forlorn and smoking, staring out at the rain. In our collective imagination, misery and creation are inextricably linked. Art is something that comes from the depths—from the stormy, windswept corners of our soul. It comes from New York, London, Berlin—places where the physical environment matches the turmoil within.

It doesn’t come from San Diego.

“This city is good at promoting three things,” says Justin Hudnall. “Weather, fish and football. But if you want to be an artist, you almost have to go somewhere else.”

Entangled in the ideal of “America’s Finest City” is the notion that the angst and suffering upon which we believe all art must feed simply doesn’t exist here. Baudelaire wasn’t writing on a beach, after all.

“To that I would say that there is a dark side of paradise,” Hudnall says. “There’s an underbelly here—it’s just untapped. People in San Diego do have stories to tell. All they need is a stage.”

A stage is precisely what Hudnall, along with his partners Jake Arky and Jessica Gillette, are trying to provide. So Say We All, a kind of incubator for writers, musicians, artists and actors, was formed in February 2009, after NYU grads and self-described “drama fags” Hudnall and Arky had finally had enough.

The two met while working at the La Jolla Playhouse. Hudnall, a writer, was born and raised in San Diego and began to grow frustrated with the city’s attitude toward its artists as productions at the Playhouse were regularly manned with talent shipped in at exorbitant costs from New York, L.A.—anywhere but here.

“Meanwhile, all these local artists are screaming, ‘I’m here and I want to work!’” Hudnall explains.

“There’s this idea that art and artists couldn’t possibly come from San Diego,” Arky adds. “The city has a real inferiority complex, and that’s what we’re trying to overcome.”

Arky and Hudnall were convinced that San Diego was teetering on a cultural tipping point—all it needed was a push. So, together with Gillette, they conceived an idea for a story slam to showcase the talents of local writers. After the first event, for which six writers showed up, interest snowballed—so much so that So Say We All is in danger of becoming its founders’ full-time job.

The concept is disarmingly simple: Offer an underserved, underappreciated community of artists a stage, a microphone and an audience—and watch what they can do. Each event is organized around a theme, and participants submit their stories and materials to SSWA for feedback beforehand. Prior to being staged, each event is rehearsed. (“It’s important for people to understand that,” interjects Arky. “This is not an open-mic thing. Open-mic sucks.”) Past themes have included “Caught in the Act,” during which a performer described how coming out in southern Minnesota made him somewhat of a collector’s item, and “Scared Shitless,” when El Cajon native Missy Solis recounted a violent childhood tragedy that unfolded against the mock-horror of Halloween.

SSWA events have proved a haven for writers like Rob Williams, who moved with his husband from Brooklyn four years ago. “It was tough, at first, finding other creative types in San Diego,” he says. “Four years ago you really had to go searching for them. It’s not like New York City, where you bump into them with every step you take.”

The group is expanding on its original story slam concept to include a variety of different media. They staged “My Friend Dahmer,” a play adapted by Arky and produced by Hudnall on Halloween. SSWA has also introduced VAMP, events that include elements of visual art, music and performance. Musician Rob Deez, who describes his sound as an amalgam of acoustic, hip-hop and comedy that he has yet to christen with a clever name, remembers playing the show titled “When Poverty Strikes” at Cream coffeehouse back in August.

“When I got to the show, I was blown away by the turnout,” he recalls. “I asked Justin what his secret was because I’ve played many a show to an empty room.”

Deez went on to perform at the “Scared Shitless” event, where “Justin told me that there was a 55-year-old evangelical Christian mother in the audience and she said I was the funniest thing she’d seen in a long time. I think that’s awesome seeing how most of my songs are not very”—he pauses, searching for the right words—“55-year-old-evangelical-Christian-mother-friendly.”

The range of personalities participating in events is one thing Hudnall and Arky pride themselves on. “We had a senior citizen step up to the mic not long ago and totally school the hipster who came on before,” Hudnall laughs.

“It’s just amazing what people can do if you give them an audience and take them seriously.” SSWA also maintains a website (www.sosayweallonline.com), where past shows are archived and new material is regularly added.

The group is staging weekly events in November (“VAMP” on Nov. 9 at Whistle Stop Bar, “Living Room Heroes” on Nov. 21 at Cream and “Story Slam” on Nov. 28 at Lestat’s West) and hopes to become a consistent and influential presence in the local arts scene—a kind of This American Life for San Diego.

“Not that we’re trying to emulate something else,” Hudnall cautions. “But we were watching a VHS tape of Ira Glass and Dan Savage from the early ’90s, way before they became who they are now. It’s encouraging to know that something as pervasive as that started small. It gives us hope.”

Hudnall and Arky begin to jokingly argue over which of them is Savage and which is Glass.

“OK, Jake,” Hudnall finally laughs, “you can be Ira because you have glasses.

“And because you’re the Jew.”

Thanks to everyone at Citybeat for your love and support of So Say We All. The only editorial I have to add in is that while her new nickname is going to be "Mach 3", Jess' last name is spelled "Jollett".

Friday, October 16, 2009

Chumbawumba's Motto

I got knocked down.
But I'll get up again.
You're never gonna keep me down.


That said, I'm sure I'll still be pissin' the night away sometime in the near future.

As it happens, life has taken a jackhammer to my plans and a lot of things are changing. It's funny, because fall is always a time of year that I feel things are pretty solid and unmoving. Now, the ground shakes like a fat man's burping belly, smelling equally as foul and pungent. Smell that? It's the smell of transitions.

The life jukebox spins another record I didn't see coming. What's up on the playlist?

New York: Thought I was moving back to New York. Thought I had a job in the city, doing theater professionally again. Thought too soon and now I have to wait. I'm told the job is still out there and that management is simply looking for a way I can fit in, financially and in what capacity my work will be focused on. But I'm not sitting around waiting; if it comes, great. If not, life to be lived.

Jobs: Don't think just because I didn't get the NY job doesn't mean that I'm staying with SOE (or as we've come to call it "It SO Easy!) for the hours and pay they are asking. I'm actually trading in SOE for SEO, heading back to the Law Offices of MAP. This makes me happy, truth be told. I'll be writing most of the day, hanging out with Kevin and crew, and getting paid more which always makes my life easier. Come Tuesday of next week, it is back to the bloggosphere of personal injury.

Girls, ETC: Sara and I are going are separate ways next week. When New York was put into the question -- and even after it never came to fruition -- she had made up her mind to move home. I can honestly say that, yes, I'm truly sad she is leaving. On the other hand, it feels nice to not be bitter at someone with whom you've shared a relationship with for two plus years. She's going to be with her family, happy, and kept in a realm of comfort I can only dream of. There's a life out there that she wants to live and I'll be damned if I stand in the way.

So Say We All: Aside from being broke, SSWA is going really well. Our last show, Scared Shitless, brought in a huge crowd and we delivered on the content side. It really came together and I've enjoyed doing the shows more lately. Especially looking forward to My Friend Dahmer getting the SSWA treatment. I'm playing Derf, Jen is directing, and Justin is taking producer/tech coordinator on this one. Lots of memorizing -- that's the only rub. Other than that, looking forward to soiling your pants come Halloween.



And that's the news. Oh, Danny boy!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Scare Them Kids

I really believe this reporter nailed the idea that kids today are not being toughened up for a cruel and harsh world. I hate to say it, but it is true. Though I don't think Where The Wild Things Are is going to scare the crap outta any one (sorry, it already looks like it is going to be my favorite movie this year), I do think it is good to challenge kids. However, that being said, my parents had a taped operatic version of the book and played it for me once because I got so freaked out by it. Yet here I write before you today, a well-rounded, if not a little worse for ware, full functioning adult. And I plan on seeing the movie as many times as possible.



Parents, take heed:

While the chatter about this Friday’s release of Where the Wild Things Are hasn’t exactly reached wild rumpus-like proportions, the filmmakers did their best to spark a little brushfire of controversy in Newsweek today. Jonze, Eggers, and Sendak gathered in Sendak’s living room for what was supposed to be a free-flowing conversation about what it was like for three geniuses to harmonically converge on one project. But at eighty years old, Sendak had no interest in spoon-feeding platitudes to the press. Instead, he and Jonze and Eggers lamented how vanilla childhood in America has become. Worrywart parents aren’t doing their kids any favors by depriving them of their right to get scared out of their minds watching movies or reading books. Scarytales are character building and virtually guarantees a stormy artistic temperament if not a legit career as an artist. This rant made me stop and think about how I spent most of my childhood watching wildly inappropriate movies like the deeply-creepy futuristic cannibalism-tinged Soylent Green. I still can’t forget the image of the big bulldozers rolling through city streets and scooping up fleeing crowds of people to turn them into nutritious biscuits. Nothing that happened to me in real life came close to keeping me up at night the way that and other movies did. But now I wonder if my mom didn’t do me a favor by setting me up for that kind of terror. If these guys are to be believed, the only thing we have to fear for our children is the lack of fear itself. I gotta say, I kind of agree that we’re short changing kids by letting them fill their minds with Disney schmaltz instead of quality filmmaking.

-- Christine Spines

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Missed Connections Never Looked So Sexy

Sophie Blackall has done a truly inspired thing for her blog: having missed connections on Craiglist turned into works of art. Because, let's face it, writing a missed connection is an art form unto itself, requiring precision, tact, and a certain amount of guts. I've never heard of two people meeting again because the line towards each other was disconnected the first time, but I'm sure it happens.

Usually, it would be easy to make fun of all the people pining for someone they barely shared any time with, but I enjoy how sweet and upbeat Blackall's representation of never-was/could-be really is:







The closest thing in my life that has happened in the realm of W4M4M4W4W is that while I was in high school, working at the Orbit Cafe, a customer took out a missed connection column in the local weekly newspaper for our hostess and my friend, Dede. He had seen her on a Sunday -- my usual shift -- and asked me about it the next week when I was back to my regular schedule. I told him all he'd have to do was come in on a Saturday night or Thursday lunch hour and he'd see her. I missed where they connected or not (I have a feeling it didn't pan out happily).

Friday, September 25, 2009

Utah Hates Theater

Congratulations, Utah, on a hitting a new low: banning classic works of the Greeks. Namely, one of the best plays from Euripides, from 405 B.C.E., The Bacchae (or in this case, The Bakkhai)



Basically, the University of Utah (for what it is worth, they do usually earn my praise) hosted a production of the play at Brigham Young University (for what it is worth, they usually never garnish my praise), only to have BYU officials call curtains on what they deemed “inappropriate for the BYU audience” because of the sex, alcohol, and violence that is portrayed in the play. Good thing there is nothing like that in the Bible…oh, wait…no, hold on a sec…

This particularly angers me because I was once put on the chopping block myself for performing theater that the majority of Utah audiences (read: strict Mormons) had a problem with. True it was in a public high school, but it was an extracurricular project. Anyone who wanted to come paid five dollars and the rest of the school just went on calling us “fags”. Plenty of people walked out, too, because of plays I had a hand in: 1) an original play by me called The Copyboys Revolt, which only made innuendo towards a certain part of the male anatomy and 2) Edward Albee’s The Zoo Story, where I played a character who had, at one point in his life, had a homosexual experience.

Anywhere else in the country, typical drama geeks trying to be crazy (and doing a damn good job of it, I might add). But in Utah: Shocking! Scandalous! Shut down! After the first night of the run, I was called in with the rest of the cast to the vice principle’s office where we were told that we might be suspended or the show was going to be shut down. I casually reminded him that my parents were connected to the press—the only time I’ve played that card—but it was that comment that probably made up the V.P.’s decision for us to go black for the rest of the run. Ironically, Copyboys was awarded Best New Play in 2003 by Utah Theater Association and we took Zoo Story to the regional and state drama competitions, taking both for first place, Olympus High’s first win ever for a theater festival. So, a show that the school itself shut down got it more press and accolades than any other sporting or academic event between 2003 and 2004.

Still, I don’t feel like I won. It is obviously still happening today in my home state, against a play that is over 2000 years old. Don’t force me to smear my mascara as I ball into a camera: “LEAVE THEATER ALONE!!!”

Friday, September 11, 2009

You Think Y'Know Wallace Shawn

But you gots no idea. Here's the diary of a grumpy, but honest (and fantastic) playwright.

Gothamist seems to always like Shawn, particularly for the reason that he is a playwright with a recognizable face. Though, as the scribe himself goes on to mention, he has mixed feelings about that. I've only lifted the text that focuses on his dramatist skills, leaving out his feelings of Obama and The New York Times.

I know, I know: inconceivable!



It's been nine long years since Wallace Shawn's strange and haunting masterpiece, The Designated Mourner, was staged in a crumbling old gentleman's club on Wall Street—the perfect location for a play that so vividly illustrates how pampered complacency enables brutal tyranny. Now Shawn is finally back with another play—well, sort of. His Grasses of a Thousand Colours premiered at the Royal Court in London earlier this year, but a production in New York, his home town, is far from assured.

Still, Shawn's busy with other writing projects, while also acting in various mainstream Hollywood movies and television shows, as usual. And he's just released a thought-provoking collection of essays, titled simply Essays, which reveals much about his perspective on politics, creativity, and sex. During a long interview at a Chelsea diner last week, Shawn elaborated on his essays, his critics, and his president.


In the book you interviewed the poet Mark Strand and you asked him whether it bothers him that a million people don't revere him. Does it bother you that your plays are, perhaps, less known than your acting? Well, so what? I mean, it does bother me, but we can put that down as a trivial, sort of pitiful concern that people who know me or have to live with me hear me complaining about. I take myself seriously as a writer of plays, not necessarily because I should, but I took myself seriously when I was six years old, you know, that's just how I was raised and so I take my plays seriously and I don't like it if people aren't interested in them or have a patronizing attitude towards them. I get upset about it.

I've achieved a certain popular success as a comical actor and on a bad day, I suppose if someone comes up to me and says, "Hey, you're the inconceivable guy!"—because that was a word or catchphrase that my character used in the popular film that I was in. When that person defines me that way, and says you're the "inconceivable" guy, I may have a momentary twinge of thinking, "Wait a minute, I think I'm the guy who wrote that play, the one you've never heard of!" I don't deny that on a bad day, I might have that reaction. Although most of the time if someone comes up and says something like, "Oh, I really enjoyed you in that movie that you were in," or "I saw you on Gossip Girl and I really enjoyed it," that's just as pleasing to me. I'm not thinking about the fact, "Why aren't they complementing my plays!" I mean, why would they even know about them? I'm pleased if they saw me on Gossip Girl and enjoyed it. I'm delighted.

You also ask Strand if he felt different than when he was 30. You said you did. How so? Well at that time—and he described something similar very eloquently. A roller coaster works due to a mechanical device that pulls you up to the highest point, and then in terms of the number of feet that are covered, that's only a small proportion of the ride, but by the time you've been pulled up to the top of the highest point, then the machine lets you go over the first hill and then you go over all the smaller hills. But you need the machine to pull you up to the top to get the thing going. After that, there's no machine, you're just rolling.

And so to get yourself to be a writer, you have to have outrageous self confidence. You have to convince yourself that what you're doing is definitely great. So, that's what I felt when I was 30. I felt, "The plays that I'm writing, there's no doubt about it, they're definitely magnificent works and anybody who doesn't think so is wrong!" And I don't think I would have been able to really get myself to do those things if I hadn't felt that. But now, I am more prepared to believe it if someone were to say to me, "Well most writers think they're great, but most writing's not great, so you're probably one of the ones who's kidding himself and your work probably will be forgotten, most people's is, and your work probably is not that great." I wouldn't put up a tremendous fight about it. I would say, well, we'll see. I don't know. After my death, we will discuss it.

Speaking for myself, I can say that seeing The Designated Mourner on Wall Street was absolutely unforgettable and the best experience I've had—I can't say in a theater, because it wasn't in a theater.
[Laughing] That's so great, you must have been about 11 years old at the time.

Hmm, no, I think I was 24 or something. But many years passed between that and Grasses of a Thousand Colours. Did that feel like a lot of time for you or did it feel like a natural period of time between finishing plays? My dear fellow, you'll be shocked to find how fast 10 years feels. You know between 55 and 65, it's just unbelievable. I mean it's unbelievable. It seems like 15 minutes. I mean it just goes by so fast. So no, it didn't seem like a long time. Most of the things I've written have been over a period of five years. This was over a period of 10 years, but it seemed like three years. So for me, subjectively it didn't seem longer than the others.

I read that it's going to be presented by the New Group. Is that actually happening? Well, I think that there are a lot of—there are 11 things that have to happen before a play can actually be put on. A lot of people have to agree on a lot of things and someone has to pay for it, so you know, we are still in the stage of... I want the play to be done in New York and so does Andre [Gregory, director] and I hope it'll be possible.

Were you pleased with the London premiere? What do you mean?

Were you satisfied with the production? Were you happy? It was our production, yes! I think it's an incredible production. Incredible! And you know, I was in the production, so you could say that I have not seen the production, but I've seen a lot of pictures of it and I've seen the other actors and if you like it, it's great. Some people are never going to like it, they're not going to like it at all, and some people are not going to get it, and they won't like it.

Did you read the reviews? Mmhmm.

Some of the reviews were very good, and then of course there are mixed opinions about things. The writer for the Telegraph wrote something about, how when he arrived home, he couldn't look his own cat in the eye without blushing. Which to me seems like a compliment because maybe it revealed something about himself that he'd been ignoring.
Well, the play has to do with the relationship between human beings and the natural world. And maybe that writer for the Telegraph was—Freud said there's no jokes, or something to that effect, and maybe he [the writer] was shaken in his view of the relationship between man and nature, I don't know. Let's hope so.

Speaking of people reacting, I've always marveled at how your work just evokes such extreme reactions in people. Joe Papp called you one of the most important dramatists of our time, and then there's the critic John Simon, who seems to have such massive contempt for your plays. Why do you think that he in particular has responded so negatively and viciously? I don't know much about him. I've read all the horrible things he's said about me, and Andre and I even participated in a panel with him at the Telluride Film Festival. We were surprised to find that the organizers had put him on the panel along with us! And he said very hateful things. I don't know that much about him, and if I did, it would be rude to speculate. Obviously he would say, about me, "Well, I have contempt for him because he's phony!" He would say of me: "I would have contempt for him because he's a person with no talent who nonetheless has foisted himself on the public, and I'm exposing him as a fake."

So then I, if I knew a lot about John Simon, I suppose I would say, well the real reason that he doesn't like me is "blah blah." Which would be a pointless exercise. I don't know why he doesn't like me. I mean, it is beyond the normal bounds and it crosses over into a kind of personal hate. One of the critics in London expressed a kind of personal hate or contempt. Some people feel that it's been very easy for me, that I've had a very easy life, and haven't had to struggle as most people do. I think they feel that I had every advantage. From their point of view, I had connections, I knew people who knew people. And I was given every advantage, every privilege; you know, private schools. I mean, those things are all true; I have had it easy. But that doesn't bear really one way or another on my writing. But yes, some people may feel a particular sense of revulsion against me because they think I've had such an easy time in life and haven't really had to struggle as most people do.

Do you wonder if there's a political element to it, too? Because I remember in Harold Pinter's case, for instance—it seemed like there was a vindictiveness to the critics who were opposed to his work and I always wondered if there was a subtext of it really being about his politics? Well, politics has to do with how society is organized and who makes the decisions and who makes the power, and your feeling about all of that is going to come out in what you write, probably. A lot of Pinter's early plays were not in any way directly political, but his feelings about authority come out loud and clear. Yes, people who, for instance, have a high regard for the status quo, let's say, are just instinctively going to hate writing that seems to be sneering at the status quo or denouncing it even if it's very indirect. And every play fits somewhere on that spectrum. One can think of many Broadway plays that one has seen that accept certain assumptions and reject other certain assumptions. There are jokes that might be, from the point of view of the conscious mind of the writer, just silly jokes. They say, "Oh well, I just thought it was funny." But if you really analyze it, it's a joke that's at someone's expense, or it's a joke that assumes certain things about the way society should be. A critic picks up on that and likes it or doesn't like it.

In the book you talk about collaborating with this voice that "comes through the window," and from what I've read, it seems like that's also how Pinter and other writers work. My question is: How do you balance trusting the mysteriousness of that voice through the window with also deciding what to eliminate and edit? My writing usually does have two pretty distinct stages to it. It's oversimplifying it in a way, but there's a first stage where there's raw material being collected. That is like the timber that is brought into the factory and that's coming from the unconscious or from God knows where it comes from. I'm not making it up, it comes from somewhere. And it's being delivered to the factory and then there's the much more conscious process, I mean a completely conscious process where you make something of that. You turn the wood into a chair, and some of the wood is discarded as scrap and some is useful for the making of the chair.

Are you sometimes tempted to make chairs that would appeal to a greater mass of Americans, like the movies you appear in, that would be seen by more people?
Um...yes! It's just, it's not that obvious which of the things that I normally do I would have to eliminate in order to do that. Yes, I've thought about it forever, and maybe someday I will. I don't know how long I'm going to be alive, but someday I will write something that more people could appreciate. I mean obviously there are limits to my ability to do that because, let's say, the most popular films are written in a kind of vernacular jargon that I don't use in my daily life and I wouldn't know how to imitate it. Most humor that is tremendously commercially successful I couldn't write, really. I wouldn't know how to. Because it is alien to me.

But I don't think it's ridiculous to think that I could write something that more people would like. It's never going to be as successful as the action movie that takes in $100 million dollars in a weekend. Because I don't know the line that the person says before he pulls the trigger of the gun and kills somebody, the comedic line, the insult or whatever, that makes the whole audience full of people laugh hysterically. I wouldn't know how to write that. Because it's just not funny to me. I mean I don't find those lines funny, but millions of people do. And one of them who does is the author of the line. I mean, you can't do that unless you're an enthusiast.

It's also interesting to see your plays be made into movies. And the DVD of Marie and Bruce finally came out. What was your impression of that? I loved the movie of Marie and Bruce. I think it's a fabulous movie. And I think that it's a tragedy that it was not theatrically released. It should have been. I mean, that's my belief about it.

Don't you think a live performance of a play loses something in translation when it goes to screen? Yeah, usually, but this was not a film of a play, it was a film based on a play. Just like a film is based on a novel or something. So, yes, if you just film a play, 99% of the time it is awful.

If you want to read more, go to Gothamist.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Ode To Jackson, A Tribute

I raise a glass, to the best of friends
From the start his life, until mine ends
Two creatures of the land
Bound by what, no one knows
Part ways for a time
'Til we both make the grass grow.


"We're going to put him down, probably this week," my mom told me over the phone. I barely had time for pause before she abruptly cut in, "I shouldn't have told you that." That's my mother's worst attribute in a nutshell: saving me from real pain. Her love cannot be measured, both ways between us, but she has never been able to admit to me when bad things happen until it is too late. I turn twenty-four on Sunday.

Jackson, our white lab, golden retriever mix, splashed with just a little hint of Germain Shepard, was put to sleep on Friday. Nearing seventeen years of age (it's hard for me to do the math for dog years, but I know it is high) and spending fifteen and half years with us, it was hard for my mother, my father, and my brother to say good-bye. Rightly so.

In his youth, Jackson was the spriest of dogs -- running everywhere except up and downstairs, ready to play a game of chicken at the drop of a hat, and guarding his home turf for better or worse. Two times he actually bit the friendly Mormon folk who would wonder into our backyard ('cause that's what you do in Utah), one the home owners association president of block, the other, a cable guy. Mitchell Holladay was bitten on the hand by him and had it healed with a badged and cold can of beer pressed onto the wound. Sam, by younger brother, was bitten on the eye and nearly lost it because he pushed Jackson to the limits. And I know I'll sound foolish and ignorant for saying it, but he was one of the best dogs I've ever known.

See, what most people didn't understand about Jackson is that he was more honest in himself than most humans are. He had good days, but he also had bad days. Those good outweighed the bad by a long shot. Jackson was a trail blazer during the hikes up Millcreek canyon, sometimes venturing a quarter of a mile ahead of us to clear the path. He wasn't guarding his home so he was friendly to anyone he met on the trail, a real friend of nature. And when he'd gone too far, faster than any of us could manage, he'd run back to check on us, spotting my dad or myself, before taking off to scout the terrain he'd been over a million times.

Did he fart? Like no other creature I've ever been around. Did he get in trouble? That dog would eat Kleenex and Vaseline if you left it out. Did he drive me crazy? Sure. On one occasion, shortly after we'd gotten him, he'd grabbed one of my winter gloves as I was trying to get a key from my pocket. The problem was that the glove was still attached to my coat sleeve and didn't snap off, so I got dragged through the snow, simultaneously laughing and crying at the same time. And no matter what season, he'd climb up on the couch with you and let you scratch his inner thigh, slowly sending him off to sleep. He kept watch, especially in the later years, when there was no threat at all. Several times a night he'd wake us up, just to let us know he was still there. I think he was reassuring himself in his old age to make sure we hadn't left him.

I, myself, am dealing with the loss of my old friend in ups and downs. I know my parents made a hard choice, but it was the right choice. His heart and mind were strong, even if the senility had made him more skittish and his bladder was more gone than his mind. "You keep hoping they'll pass in the night and you'll find them in the morning," my dad told me last night on our weekly phone call. He sounded depressed, not just his normal down trodden tone, but real hurt. "They never do." Dad's put both of the dogs in his will, stating his wishes to have their ashes buried with him when the time comes. I guess since I've left home I've removed myself from all things there, for better or worse. I want to cry, but I can't because I wasn't there to help out and part of me knows I shouldn't: this is a time of change, every single year, and I'm aware of that now. The week before my birthday always seems to be the hardest as my skin sheds and a new one forms. It hurts a lot. I turn twenty-four on Sunday.

The one person I worry about the most, who probably his hurting the most and unable to speak up is Jackson's canine companion, our other dog, Taz. Though not blood brothers, they were inseparable. As youths, they fake wrestle. As they got older, they'd clean each other's ears and take care of the other one. I hope Taz isn't lost, but how I can I say that when I'm not there to carry some of the load. They say couples who really love each other do not spend much time apart when one dies. Losing two of my family members, because a dog is, no matter what any one says, would be too hard and I'm just using all my back logged wishes that I can feel Taz's lick me in October when I visit for Thanksgiving. I'm sure he misses his brother.

Well, that last bit finally got me and I'm sitting in a puddle of my own salt water running down my face. At this point, all I can do is toast my friend, my brother, and dog who helped raise me.

Jackson, you will be missed and loved

Saturday, August 29, 2009

On The Radio Uh-Oh

From the Press Files of So Say We All (and a little adjustment)



Why should you take the time to listen to SSWA’s air time on The Pregame show? Here’s why:

1) Justin and I are cute and witty.

2) If you missed VAMP this month, Rob Williams performs a pitch-perfect reading of his much-loved musing on San Diego late night Mexican Food culture,”Rolled Tacos: Musings from La Posta #8″ Look out, Ira Glass, we're gunnin' for the number one spot.

3) Sam “Car Wreck” Carr, in keeping with his crusade to bring Neo-Gonzo Beatism back to the forefront of our culture’s consciousness performs his piece about being nearly murdered by an ex-girlfriend to the backing of Fever Sleeves, and then drops the F-bomb and the “special S” all within fifteen minutes. Our little schmedrick is now having his head hunted by the FCC.

Wanna hear us? Click the link here

Enjoy!

Friday, August 28, 2009

Friday Bliss

Friday, I love you. Let me count the ways.

To start off, at 8 a.m. on FM 949, there is the Friday Morning Blues Set. You'd think that this being the blues and all it should go on Monday, but the music is just too good to give up to the worst day of the week. This was today's set

August 28, 2009
Johnny Winter - "Mean Mistreater" (1969)
Taj Mahal - "She Caught the Katy" (1968)
Robert Johnson - "Hell Hound On My Trail" (1937)

Next, I walk into work, where there is an assortment of free donuts and bagels just waiting for me to eat. And you know, I'm a whore for a free meal.

Then I get to my desk, open up my computer, and log on to be reminded that, oh yeah, today was pay day. Now I have something in my account that I can watch leak out slowly until the next week.

By 1:30 p.m. I'm at the Renaissance Shopping Complex, in front of Rubios, eating sack lunch with my great friend, Jen Bantleman. We talk about being art thieves, how to test if women are pregnant with alcohol and cigarettes, and proper church etiquette.

The rest of the work day drags, as if it were any other day, but then I come home, cook a great dinner, and chill with my girlfriend in front of the television.

Now, if that damn heat would go away...

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Summer Oh Shit! List

5) The Black Eyed Peas song "I Gotta Feeling"

Dear BEPs, your record is called: The E.N.D. and that is something I'd like you to take into consideration with your careers. Sincerely, Every Morning Commuter Stuck Listening To Your Pop Trash Three Time Per Hour At 7:30 In The Morning.

4) Anything that has to do with Avatar

James Cameron. Air bending. All of it -- I don't care. Unless you're Felicia Day and offering me a date. Then I'm craving to emote with you.



3) Wolverine

I can this (__) close to falling asleep. I should have. I want my money and my life back.

2) The Real World Cancun

For someone who had not watched an entire season of RW in his life until his girlfriend made him, I have to say that I actually kind of liked the Brooklyn edition earlier this year. Granted it had all the "that's not really what life in New York is like" bullshit, but the Cancun people are just downright terrible. And now I go back to pretending that The Real World doesn't exist.

1) Justin Bieber

This music video...which plays forever...all the time...and just makes me want to never have kids.

Rat Eating Plant

The most unique product this season to come out of the Philippines. And the creepiest part: silent, but deadly.



Can I have it for my birthday?

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Next Page

As I run past first, round second, curve my way through third, and head on home in my current writing projects, I'm at my favorite crossroad of life. Namely, it involves the question of what do I write next. I used to write all the ideas down and then go back to them to figure out which ones I really take the time and effort to produce.

So far, here's what's waiting on deck to step up to the plate:

1) Nick Garlands Last Night In Town

This is a screenplay that I've already started, based upon (and hopefully starring) my friend, Nick Garland. Just to clarify: he's not leaving town, this is a fictional story, but it is hopefully going to be a showcase of San Diego talent and creative individuals who are associated with So Say We All. That's the underlying hope. But on a story level, it is about a guy who has lived in San Diego all his life and is following his long-time girlfriend out to Chicago, where he hopes to make it big on the comedy circuit. During his last night in town, he finds out his girlfriend actually left Chicago and came back to SD, leaving him with the major dramatic question of should he still leave? (Answer: hell yeah...)

2) SexBot 2400

As of last week, I've been a nerd gamer for sixty days. Rejoice! And while I've not fully acquired all the skills of Everquest to be a joystick fiend, I have learned a few things. This play would be about a quality assurance game tester who is given the task of testing a new, interactive game called SexBot 2400. It is a robotic woman who is incredibly lifelike and the objective is to find a way to have sex with her. With most of the gaming community not knowing quite how to interact on a social level, it is meant to boost their face-to-face skills and give a middle management megalomaniac the power she needs to take over the company. The only catch: it is impossible to have sex with the SexBot 2400.

3) The Draftsman

Came up with this last night while watching B.D. Wong in the good (if uneven) Herringbone. Is it a play or a movie? You tell me. A man checks into the South Point Hotel and Casino in Las Vegas. He applies for a job on a clean up crew and during his first week, finds a dead body of an independently wealthy man in one of the rooms and decides to use the man's identity to stay at the hotel indefinitely. He eats scraps from the buffet, works out in the hotel's pool, and never leaves the hotel. When he's not cleaning up other rooms, he's designing a building. One day, one of the front desk staff finds out that he is living off the dead man's credit cards and wants to know who he really is. He's a draftsman who lost his job, felt like he had disgraced his family, and decided to leave until he could come back with some sense of how to save them. Pretty twisted plan, no? The idea was to design a building that would get him rehired at his old firm, with an apartment on the top floor that would be his family's new home. Finally, the front desk person forces the draftsman to leave, after a year of solitude, to return to his family.

So, which pitch should I swing at?

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Summer Oh Yeah! List

My Summer 2009 Oh Yeah! List

10) 21st Century Breakdown -- Green Day

The album that grows on you like a bad mole. It is no Dookie or American Idiot and a far cry from Nimrod. However, once you listen to it again and again in a hot car, you finally get it -- we're all musically doomed, so party now.

9) Bruno

Wazzup? It's boner flopped at the box office, true, but it was also a step above Borat. That's because it is easy to get on board with a guy who could be a terrorist from another country, but it is hard and ballsy (sorry) to throw America's worst fear back in their face and make people laugh. Performance art hardly does it justice. This was a defying leap into comedic social commentary.

8) Rescue Me

Let's see: more details about 9/11, substantial character development Sean's battle with cancer, and the women taking control over Denis Leary's tortured and confused fireman? Oh, and everyone is drinking again, including the ghosts. Yeah, it is a kick ass season.

7) City Of Glass Graphic Novel -- By David Mazzucchelli and Paul Karasik, based on the novel by Paul Auster

Forget the original and go with the adaptation that's original, eye opening, and haunting in a way the source material was never able to quite cook up. Not only are the illustrations entrancing and hypnotic, they push the story to new depths. A great summer graphic novel.

6) The Hangover and Up

The best double-feature you can get for one ticket price. Sneak into it with someone you love and is willing to hold your hair back (extra bonus: stay for both movies' credits)

5) "Paranoid" music video by Kanye West

R&B rap meets werewolf Tarantino movie. It's B-horror style with imagination and energy that elevates a mediocre song to a new level of awesomeness. And I suppose Rhianna is pretty dashing as the possessed damsel going to the top of the mountain in her tricked out convertible. You worry about the wrong things...

4) Weeds

Still funny. Still creative. Mary-Louise Parker and Justin Kirk have the best chemistry on television. It wouldn't be summer without green growing in Mrs. Botwin's backyard. And speaking of chemistry...

3) Away We Go

Dear Dave Eggers, I apologize for calling you a hack writer who does not fully understand complex and intriguing human beings. Perhaps Maya Rudolph and John Kransinski just did everything perfectly, but you and Vendela Vida gave them the set up. Write more movies, less books.

2) "Like A Boss" music video by The Lonely Island

Stay off the boat and go to work where you can micromanage, hit on Debra, find a fish, fuck its brains out, and have an interview with Seth Rogen. I am a believer in the Lonely Island guys and think that once again, they are genius in what they make.

1) Cage The Elephant -- Cage The Elephant

Ain't no rest for the wicked. Same goes for this album on your radio. Make sure you go crazy.

Oh yeah...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Quick Sample

Last night, in a hot, cramped, sweltering apartment in Ocean Beach, I finally got to do the reading of Salt Water Cajuns (formerly, Our Mother, Staten Island), with a group of fantastic actors.

I now have a new direction to go with it and TJ and the cast gave me some interesting ideas to chew on. At first it felt like another shot in the dark at making the story work, stretching for emotion, plot, and character all at once. But a lot of the actors really liked it, many saying that when it goes up they want to audition for it.

They have hope that it will go up -- better than I do at the moment.

Speaking of actors and this play, there was a man who went by the title of Bowser back in New York and who would occasionally read and act in pieces in the dramatic writing department. In fact, he was one of the first people to read the part of "Sean" in my play.

Where is he now? Wait until about 45 seconds into this clip to find out. I've never seen him do anything like this before.

If you want to see more -- and god knows, I wasn't expecting to -- the whole episode is on Hulu. At least one of us is making it big.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Revamp 2.5

90210 has done it. Melrose Place is about to do it. And So Say We All has just completed it: a makeover and updating of an old show.

"Old," you say. "You've only been around since February! Of this year"

You are both right and wrong, sir and/or madam. We, So Say We All and the newly re-did SSWA website, have recently started to expand into the world of...wait for it...wait for it...art.

So Say We All is still storytelling and themes, but the different outlets and genres of creative expression will all have a chance to perform and get their voice heard. We are not a production company, we are just a producing entity.

Music videos are in the works, with a performance on every second Monday of the month at South Park's Whistle Stop bar. The story slams are getting bigger and better. Look out for this month's "When Poverty Strikes" show on July 31st, just in time for California to go broke during Fiscal Armageddon and August, when So Say We All changes venues, we are staying up to do our "3 A.M." show.

Plus, be on the look out Prop 8-er Haters, we are doing a main stage show with the LGBT community called: "That's So Gay." with a date that is TBA.

Basically, we are growing, we are moving, and we want you on board.

Shameless self-promotion done!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

The Great iTunes Experiment

Wanna waste some time, but in a good way?

I gave myself a challenge at the beginning of 2009, when I didn't have a job, a direction, or a sense of purpose, and that was to look at what I had instead of what I didn't have. People kept telling me to do so and I wasn't that enthused for taking them up on the offer. But I did have a computer and time to waste, so I had enough faith that I could come up with something close to self-reflection.

Then I started to go through my library of music and realized there was a lot of stuff I owned -- literally bought or took the time to copy from the Salt Lake City Public Library -- that I had never listened to. Ever. I most likely copied the CD for one song, thought I'd look lame if people saw I just wanted that one single, and wasn't a true fan of the artist unless I had their entire album.

As it stands, my iTunes library has 4,298 items, which is 16.21 MB of space and eleven and half days of music straight. It was only this past week that I finished the great experiment of listening to each song, in its entirety, alphabetically by artist's name. And guess what? I've got a lot of great music I had no idea was in my possession. So, here are the following albums which, if you own them, listen to them more often and if you do not own them, well, your loss.

This guy is a genius and you will feel so French.







By the time this album came out, I was kind of done with the Strokes. Now, I'm back.







Rubber Factory
will remain my favorite, but goddamn if this album doesn't blow the doors off your house.







Thank you Jamie Wilcox. Another great band who I never heard of and now love.



















Common's best work. Period.









It might not be the self-titled, but Mike Ness sure does know how to capture youth on vinyl and kiss your ears with it.








Also check out The Devil And Daniel Johnston.











Sam Cooke will be my favorite singer from the past century and this proves it.











Haunting. Dark. Beautiful. Listen to it at night on an urban highway.










It's the B-Sides to Hail To The Thief and, in my humble opinion, better than the A-Sides.









I still have a handful of his singles which I love to listen to, but for a full album of autumn infused bliss, this is the one.










All right, all right...it's a good album. You got me.














Afraid of Interpol? Now you don't have to be.










Don't believe the hype. Believe the music. And to quote Dave Schmidt, "that shits for real..."











You don't like country, but you will love this woman singing country.









Nas! Yes! Can all of your albums be like this and Illmatic?









There new stuff is...eh, okay. This album is where the treasure is buried.










Maybe not as good of an album as Lupe Fiasco's The Cool, but some of this songs are absolutely mind blowing. Please don't retire after your next album Lupe.













This is Modest Mouse.










What stuff do you have sitting around that deserves a second or even a first time listen?

Saturday, June 20, 2009

June Gloom

June used to be such a good month for me and now it reflects the only month of poor weather here in San Diego: gloomy. It's not like it is a bad time to be in Southern California, but it just isn't the same as the rest of year. March used to be like this and sometimes November, but June? It supposed to be cookouts and swimming pools and sunny days with energetic music and everyone coming out of there winter shell.

This June, kind of gloomy.

SEO for SOE

I'm happy to be employed at Sony Online Entertainment now. It was a rough start, I'll admit, because I just didn't know what I was getting into. First day of training, the man who was our teacher, for lack of a better title, told us: "if you are here to just play video games all day, then you should leave." Uh-oh, was my first thought and I almost did leave. Isn't that why I am here? To work a job as a game tester? And then any bugs that come back around, I'll let you know. "Ask questions," was the best advice we got and I'm asking myself, "what am I doing here if not just playing the game?" Well, the job is different from my first perceptions of it. There are a variety of tests and procedures to test the game, one which I am less than thrilled to be playing, but getting used to the world it creates and what you can do in it. After I past my new trainer test (only in five tries, I might add) I started to get more comfortable with what the job required of me. I started asking questions and not being embarrassed about not knowing anything. Now, I know what an NPC, a hot key, and a geo-test are. I'm still not perfect. I was better at SEO content writing for MAP and I miss that. As absolutely fucked up as the Law Offices of MAP were, they were a lot of fun. We joked around and had our weekends off and didn't take our work home. This job...I've got to come in on some Saturdays and Sundays, I've got play the game at home, and work in front of a computer in a dark room for eight hours a day. And I know -- I should stop complaining and be happy that I have a job with a stable company and room for growth in the industry I want to be in. So all those complaints and worries. They'll end. Right now.

It's All In The Family Drama

It was hard enough last month to deal with my aunt berating me for not taking the job at Sony because I had Omaha coming up. She basically called my playwriting ambitions pipe dreams and told me to lie to my parents about getting the Sony job before I actually had it. Then came the e-mail from her about a blog that contained my grandma, her mother. Now, my grandma was a huge figurehead in our family and always will be but she has no business randomly showing up in a blog. I skimmed it and thought, hm, that seems weird. Two days later, my aunt writes that it is actually her blog and she wrote it. I do a second read and yeah, that seems like her. But what is really killer is that my aunt has been saying some things involving my brother and cousin that I do not know how to react to. Whatever situation that took place between them was a year ago and only now are we hearing about it. My parents are cool as cucumbers when it comes to dealing with this type of stuff. Me? I'm a little stressed out by it all. I feel as though I don't know my brother well enough to defend him and saddened by the fact that my aunt, who I used to be so close with, now has a very crazy streak in her that she can't seem to shake. Who are these people? My family, yes. Familiar, hardly.

Never Mixing Friendships And Business

Where do you call on your friends to help you out with your business and where do you draw the line in calling it your business? Hard to say, as me and my friends -- no, business partners -- no, friends involved with an entrepreneurial enterprise had to come to a tough decision about taking our group in a new direction. This past week we have hired a lawyer to make us an official non-profit corporation with 501(c)3 status, gotten t-shirts and a radio interview, and are looking to expand to different mediums, a la This American Life. But the biggest thing? We are looking to expand the storytellers beyond our small group of friends from the writers circle. Some are happy, some are not. But this was the plan all along -- to have different people all the time. These people will always be the founders, the original company members, and if they have a story that cannot be passed up or they really, really want to take to the stage, hell, I'm not going to say no. But if there comes a time where we might have to ask them or even ourselves to step down, I hope we can all say yes.

It hasn't rained, it hasn't stormed, and it hasn't all come crashing down. Like every month -- hell, like every day -- I get a little bit wiser about what I am doing...with a business, with my art and craft (like I'm a first grader again), and with just this grown up version of who I am. It's still weird and takes some getting used to, but maybe I'll have a better handle on it come July.

Monday, May 25, 2009

O! What-A-City Maha

Nebraska, man, where have you been all of my life?

Currently I'm in northern Omaha for the Great Plains Theater Conference, working as a panelist for new plays and getting set to workshop another draft of My Friend Dahmer. Thus far, it is great. Everyone here is incredibly nice, helpful, excited, and passionate about theatre, sometimes to an unbelievable degree.

They've put us up in these awesome 19th century colonial type buildings that look like you could either stage a creepy horror film in or that you would want filled with aristocrats and high society ladies, smoking cigars and laughing about business. A lot of people I've met have been older and, of course, more accomplished, but there is a small group of younger writers like me who are still trying to find our way.

One of the best guys I've met here (if I had to narrow it down) is this guy Mark, who lives on floor below me. He's just a low-key guy from Chicago who got into play writing late, but must be very talented since his second play is on the main stage this weekend. Another main stage writer and delightful human being is Jessica Jill, who has been my companion through Omaha's number one gay club, late night porch drinking, and a victim of Cuban Eddie's ego gun in the classroom. Networking -- who knew it could be this much fun?

Yesterday I sat on a panel for four plays, all of which were solid, and two I really enjoyed. Again, Nebraska, where have you been all my life. I was a little worried about my play, however, as the director has been quite busy and he's doing my show, plus another one at the same time. But all my fears subsided when I got an e-mail that I have rehearsal in...well, just a few hours to be exact. Dahmer rides again!

Can't say enough about a state primarily known for its corn and for its having nothing to do. In reality, it is a chill place with fantastic people, delicious food (The Upstream), and dedicated theatre freaks, just the way I like them.